I reject your reality and submit my own

Mittens and Snowdrop is one of my favorite things. Especially this specific cartoon please clicky the link.

 

 

"I can smell your brains"

Just one more update today.  I'm fully medicated now and most of my symptoms are in check!!  YAY.  I'm proud of myself for staying on my meds for so long and getting better.  It's taking a long time and a lot of effort on my part, but I'm working on it and I thinks I'm doing pretty damn well.  Especially looking back at one of my last posts from about a year ago.  I'm much better right now.  so go me.

Well peoples who read this (ie. noone cause I just maintain this page for my own amusement) it's been so long cause I moved and didn't have internet access, I will now have internet access cause I'm gonna join a job corps program for welding.  (yes, let teh dyke jokes begin).

I won't be updating lots, and will probably continue to use this page to post stuff that amuses me and use my livejournal page http://rheenie.livejournal.com/ for substantial (or personal) stuff.  So here is my amusing thing for today:

 

clicky clicky for a great pic.  I so wanted to get this for my niece!!!

 

and this isn't really amusing, it's more me validating myself:

1) Nobody has ever died from smoking pot.

2) Marijuana users report less depression  (duh, why do you think I smoke it every day???  It also helps treat my bipolar disorder)

3) Marijuana does not cause emphysema, unlike tobacco. 

4) Marijuana does not cause cancer (and if you  smoke it you are actually slightly less likely to get cancer)

5) THC actually helps cleanse the lungs, preventing tumors

6) Daily marijuana use doesn’t damage your brain.

7) There has never been a study to link marijuana with psychological problems, though it’s not for a lack of trying.

8) Marijuana is NOT a gateway drug.

9) Marijuana fights hardened arteries

10) Marijuana has both stalled the growth of and eliminated brain tumors in rats. Such an experiment has yet to be done on humans.

11) Not that herd mentality is a good reason, but you’re not alone. Marijuana is the US’s number one crop.

12) Sex gets a whole lot better  (YEA BUDDY IT DOES)  if you havent tried sex after smoking pot, DO IT!!!!!

 

13) 15 millionpeople smoke it a month (US only).

14) Marijuana can prevent blindness.

15) Marijuana can prevent migraines.

16) Marijuana is less addictive than caffeine. There is no physical addiction but a slight mental addiction can develop.

17) In 1977 the DEA wanted to decriminalize marijuana. When the government, which has tried for so long to prove that marijuana is harmful, admits that it really isn't, shouldn't that tell you something?

18) Haven’t you always wanted to be able to laugh at Pauly Shore?

19) Because legality isn’t a good enough reason for you to not smoke. Slavery was once legal and sodomy was once illegal; legality is a horrid barometer for morality.

20) Because getting “high” isn’t “bad.” Though you may not realize it, eating meat or candy or fried foods or vegetables or drinking coffee, tea, or soda all effect your mental state. All of these things can make you “high.”

21) Because we don’t yet know all of the benefits of marijuana; the government has tried for years to prove that it is harmful and has consistently failed. Very few studies have explored its benefits.

22) Because you would be in the company of Louis Armstrong, the Beatles, Bob Denver, Bill Clinton, George Bush (okay, never mind him), famous scientist Carl Sagan, Michael Bloomberg, Lewis Caroll, George Washington Carver, Salvador Dali, Al Gore, Steve Jobs,  John kennedy, John Wayne, and George Washington.

23) Because it feels good and it doesn't hurt anyone.

 

and even more amusing:

(not to me, but to everyone but me)

I have to be sober for job corps  *weeping*  and I havent smoked in almost three weeks.  GO me!!!

Because

Gay men and lesbians are discriminated against in housing and empoyment and because how we act is more important than who we are and if we get harassed its our problem and if we get attacked we provoked it and if we raise our voices we're flaunting ourselves and if we enjoy sex were perverts and if we have AIDS we deserve it and if we march with pride we're recruiting children and if we want or have children we're unfit parents and if we stand up for our rights we're overstepping our boundries and because we are forced constantly to question our own worth as human beings and if we dont have a relationship with someone of the opposite sex we haven't given it a chance and if we have a relationship with someone of the same sex it is not recognized and we are told our love is not 'real' and if we come out of the closet we're just going through a phase and because lesbian and gay history is virtually absent from literature and because homophobia is sanctioned by the supreme court and . . . for lots of other reasons,

I am a part of the lesbian and gay civil rights movement

*gay pride*
 

Okay, for those of you who've been living under a rock South Dakota has banned ALL abortions unluss it threatens the LIFE of the mother.  Not health, no exception for rape(I'll get to that in a minute) or incest.  They'll have to overturn Roe v. Wade to make it legal, but that's what this whole thing was about in the first place.  And in response I've written a letter to South Dakota.

 

Dear South Dakota,

Thank you.  No really, thank you.  I needed to be reminded of my place.  Especially my place in the midwest.  Women are walking uteri, and should be treated as such.  Thank you so much for reminding me of this fact.  Thank your god (because if I didn't then I'd deserve to be raped, more on that in a moment) that you've reminded us all of this. 

 

Forget having hopes or dreams or asperations.  I should have started popping out the sprogs in highschool like a good little girl.  Forget any health problems I may have, permanent or otherwise, because the life of a hypothetical fuck trophy is so important.  Forget any and all genetic diseases that I may pass onto this life, because it 'deserves to be born'. 

 

And on that note What the FUCK are you 'pro-lifer's' on about?!  FUck  You!  You're pro life until it comes out of the uterus, then it's okay to forget it.  If i passed on a disease or any of my mental problems to this hypothetical kid, that'd be okay.  Because then I'd have to deal with it.  And forget the overall health and happiness of the thing, as long as it's ALIVE.  Forget the sick, deformed, or retarded kids that would have a long, miserable, painful life.  Why the fuck would we want to spare an innocent life of that?  Wait, I forgot.  Once out of the uterus you don't care anymore.  OOPS, my bad.  pro life my ass.  You aren't pro anything but pro fetus.  If you were that pro life you'd be doing something constructive for the people out there who ARE alive.

 

And then the same people who want to ban abortion want to do away with birth control.  So yet again, thank you South Dakota for once again reminding the women of your state that they're nothing but incubation for your future white male republicans.  And of course for the reminder that women should NOT be having sex at all if they don't want to procreate.  Shame on them for wanting to enjoy themselves.  Shame on them, the sinful whores, for wanting to have fun and *gasp* ENJOY sex.  You're right.  That is absolutely inexcusable.  How dare these sluts demand the right to worry-free sex.  How Dare they want to be able to have sex without having a baby.  What the fuck is wrong with them for being healthy sexual beings and not wanting to be barefoot and pregnant from puberty to menopause.  Why not cut the clitoral hoods of ALL female babies born in your state to ensure the total lack of enjoyment of sex while you're at it. 

 

And the morning after pill?  Forget that!  Honestly, they should have planned ahead and used a condom.  Oh, wait.  That's right, they should't have had sex at all.  

 

But, wait.  What if I'm raped??  Shouldn't I be able to get an abortion then.  Shouldn't the pain and suffering of the rape be enough?  Why should I be subjected to the constant reminder of the attack?  Oh, yes.  If it threatens the LIFE of the mother, THEN it can be aborted.  In fact, let's just see what Bill Napoli says about that:

A real-life description to me would be a rape victim, brutally raped, savaged. The girl was a virgin. She was religious. She planned on saving her virginity until she was married. She was brutalized and raped, sodomized as bad as you can possibly make it, and is impregnated. I mean, that girl could be so messed up, physically and psychologically, that carrying that child could very well threaten her life.

 

Okay then.  Now that we have THAT cleared up.  As long as I'm white, a virgin, am a member of your religion, and while I was being raped I made sure that he really did a number on me, THEN I could have an abortion.  As long as you gave me permission first.  When the FUCK did rapists get more rights than their victims.  Oh, that's right,  no one cared about my assault when I was a little girl (I was already out of the womb!) so why would it matter if I was an adult???  Okay.  Not a virgin.  So there we go, I deserve to be raped and have to carry the baby.  I don't believe in your god.  Okay, so again I deserve to be raped and have to bear the child of the attacker.  I wasn't sodomized, or maybe I wasn't beaten within an inch of my life, or maybe he didn't beat me at all, I was just raped.  Not brutally, so it doesnt' count.  So there we go, I deserved it and must deal with the consiquenses of my actions, and have his baby.  YAY! a rapist's  SPERM count for more in this country that I do.  I feel fucking loved.  And what about that rapist that got visitation rights to his kid??  Again YAY, the man who attacked me has more rights that I do, because all I count for is my uterus.  I guess it's a good thing I can have kids, otherwise I'd really be in trouble.  Oh, CRAP!!  I have sex with girls.  DAMN, that means I count for even less that just a walking uterus.  I suck.

 

Unless of course I grow up to be a breederific christian republican who when not shitting out kids is lobbying for you, and picketing places that help pregnant women. 

 

Yes, thank you again South Dakota for opening my eyes to what a horrible person I am for being on the side of the pregnant teen who would't be able to afford a baby, for the married woman who just doesnt want kids, for the mentally ill who wouldn't be able to care for their child, for the handicapped, for the women who pregnancy would make deathly ill, and for any other woman who wants an abortion for any other reason. 

 

I suck, and don't deserve the life you are so thoughtfully are planning out for me.   Me and my silly little girl brain can hardly handle that kind of responsibility. 

 

in short.  FUCK YOU SOUTH DAKOTA.  eat shit and die.  and I hope that every child you all 'save' from abortion gets dropped on your fucking doorstep you egotistical assholes. 

 

much love,

Rhiannon

 

Today (march 1st) is  Self Injury Awareness Day!  go to: http://www.selfharm.org/

not something everyone is interested in, but it's something that effects me personally, and it's my space.  So there.  :P

 

I've made an extra $40 this week doing laundry for the construction guys staying in the hotel.  Thank jebus, cause this was going to be a tight two weeks.  It still will be, but not as bad.  Thank you construction guys!

Part of the reason $ is so tight is cause I'm using gas to go back and forth to Waterloo every day this week to apply for jobs/see my mike.  I've had an interview as an assistant manager at mr. movie and am going tomorrow to the humane society to apply for a job as a kennel assistant.  If there is anything I took away from school its how to disinfect a kennel.

 

(for those of you who don't know I was going to school to be a vet tech(nurse) before I had a breakdown and failed out.)

 

I've been in a good mood today, why I'm not sure, but I am. 

 

 

The housekeeper I don't like overheard a convo between me and my friend kathy (also a housekeeper here) and told my bosses I'm applying for jobs elsewhere.  So now they're concerned I'll quit on them.  I'd totally give them at least two weeks if I quit.  But now if they freak out and hire someone else and fire me I'll be homeless as well as jobless.  Grr *kicks her*  wish me luck finding a couple decent jobs.

and if I do find a job I'll be sleeping in my car for a couple weeks till I find an apartment, cause I'd rather spork out my own eyes than stay with my mom again.  I love her.  But she drives me fucking crazy.   besides that, I doubt she'd want me to stay there anyways.

 

In other news:
I want mira to come back from france cause I'm really horny and want to have lots of sex with her. (even though I had good sex recently.  Maybe I should just call him.)

My black eye is almost gone.

mom still hasn't gotten rid of that damn puppy.

I'm tired of working 17 hour days.

I'm just tired.

um, and not much else. 

YAY for frannie's brakes being fixed, cause now I can actually drive long distances, and even more yay to new brake cables on friday, and a hugeass YAY for being able to stop without dying.

 

 if anyone knows of anyplace in Waterloo, IA that I can donate plasma let me know!!  That would help the finances muchly, and driving to CR every week kind of defeats the purpose.

 

It's HUMPDAY! half way through the week!  not that that means much to me, I work all weekend, but it may mean something to you all, especially those of you in school!

 

and I think I'm out of things to say. 
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yep, out of things to say. 

*loves* for you all!!!

 

today:

okay, well, my car was supposed to be getting fixed today.  Frannie's engine is fine, but the brakes are bad.  Apparently REALLY REALLY bad.  I knew they were horrible, but. Anyway.  The mechanic is a friend of my mom.  He called her and was appalled that I had driven it at all

"You mean she DROVE that death trap here?  Does she have a DEATH WISH?!"

hokay.  So.  New rotors and pads tonight, and new cables next week.  then I won't die when I try to stop.  YAY. 

and because I'm broke,  No eating or drugs for the next two weeks.  Frannie is being expensive.

 

yesterday:

Oh. Emm. Eff. Gee.  omfg, people.  Story:  I came to an odd and not a little disturbing realization yesterday.

backstory: I had Saturday night off, but couldn't do anything cause my brakes are broken on my car (getting fixed tomorrow, YAY) so I was going to have mike drive me around.

back to the story: So saturday I had a bad day and to make myself feel better I decided to make myself look pretty. (well, as pretty as I get)  So I did my makeup, straightened and streaked my hair (purple and red, very pretty) and I was painting my nails.  Then a realization hit me.  I was alone in my apartment on a saturday night, sitting on my couch painting my nails to look pretty, and WAITING FOR A BOY TO CALL ME.

weirdness factor: 10/10. 

That has never happened to me before.  I thought it was disturbing and quite hilarious.  I had to share.